The news made me very happy indeed. I would be married. There would be music, I would hear the women ululating. How exciting that would be! Yet I felt scared at the same time. I cannot express the apprehensions that came to my mind. Meanwhile, the various things necessary for the ceremony began to arrive. Relatives and guests began pouring in. I was scared to death by all this. I did not talk to anyone but spent most of the time weeping. Everybody did their best to reassure me. They embraced me, but the unspoken agony in my mind did not lift. Later on, I was cheered up by the ornaments, the red wedding sari and the wedding music. I forgot my earlier worries and went about laughing and watching the elaborate preparations. My happiness knew no bounds. When everything was over the next day, I heard people asking my mother, “Are they leaving today ?” I thought they were referring to the guests. Then the music started. There was an air of festivity. The guests must be leaving now, I thought. It made me happy and I went about following my mother. Presently everybody assembled in the house. Some looked happy, but others were in tears. They made me really frightened. Then my brothers, aunts, uncles, and my mother all took me in their arms by turn as they burst into tears. Their tears made me so sad that I began to cry too. I knew my mother was going to hand me to the other family. I tightened my hold on her and pleaded, “Don’t give me over to them, Mother!” that made everybody present even more upset. They broke down and tried to say nice words to console me. My mother took me in her arms and said, “You are a good girl, you understand everything, don’t you?” God is with us; you needn’t be afraid. You are going to come back to us in a few days’ time. Every girl has to go to her in-laws’ house. Nobody else cries like this. There is no reason to be upset. Please calm down and talk to me.” But I was trembling with fear. I was quite unable to speak. Somehow, I managed to say through my tears: “are you sure that God will go with me ?” Mother promptly reassured me that he most certainly would. “He will be with you all the time, so stop crying now.” But in spite of her soothing words my apprehensions kept growing and I could not check my tears.